01.01.2010

First day of the year.
First entry of the year.

Eaten delicious foods.
Drank French wine.

Two sisters missing.
Mom's ranting.
Xioms got cough and colds.
Mom's still ranting.

Firecrackers are evanescing.
Blogging while chatting.

Dark Night's on TV.
Neighbor's music is Poker Face.

16th half glass of wine.
Text messages.

Mind's now blank.

Happy year of the tiger!

x

Love burns brighter than sunshine

Isn't it nice waking up and starting your day with a lot like love? Nine hours or so before the New Year starts and I'm pretty excited what that would bring. Probably, another year older, Xioms will turn 3, meeting new people, falling in love, and so on. Sheesh, this blog's getting mushy!

It was 9 in the morning when Xioms went in to my room and woke me up. I promised last night that we'll have a coffee tomorrow. Yes, coffee's bad for kids and it was not literally coffee drinking! One of her god parents gave my kiddo a coffee/tea set toy present. Xioms wanted to open it at an instant but t'was already her bed time -- that's when I promised. One thing I learned is that you never make a promise that you can't keep or you'll feel bad and guilty. So we did have our coffee and enjoyed every moment.

This day seems ordinary though there's a big event to celebrate. Ordinary day at home is not ordinary at all and I don't know why I keep on saying the word ordinary. Anyway, mom's preparing for our feast later tonight and I'm looking forward to our dessert. We planned on buying Banapple or DQ's oreo ice cream cake. I know, I know... and I never hesitate to announce that I'm a DQ addict. So, what would be on our table tonight? Well, so far, am seeing some pata tim (Chinese delicacy), grilled milk fish, marinated chicken, pasta, all sorts of fruits and chocolates!

So there's nothing much to say, just a Happy New Year and enjoy the sunshine with your loved ones.

x

Viatores' Xmas 09

My lovely Vs and I had our Xmas dinner at Mr. Jones, Greenbelt 5 recently. It was planned since we will be having a huge surprise for our good friend Keti. As you know, Keti went through a very tragic event (Ondoy) so the rest of the group decided to give her a little something that would help her start.

Anyway, we all arrived late as usual except for Five. Hehe. Karla didn't make it as she needed to attend on to something really important. Food was all yummy and are all in huge servings! I was thrilled that they have chardonnay and yes, I ordered!

After consuming all the carbs we ordered, we did the traditional exchanging of gifts. Then we handed Keti our presents! We were all excited to see Keti's reaction. She never cried though I felt she wanted to -- lots of people around, she can never afford to humiliate herself again in public. Joke!

What's inside the bag? Well, Five and Bnx bought lots of stuff and I should commend those two - they did a great job! Kets got everything, from head to toe AND it all fits perfectly!

We bid adieu as I needed to rush to Glorietta for the Avatar movie. I promised Achi that we'll watch this on 3D. Keti's in the night shift so she needed to go as well. F was like, "It's Midnight Madness for gawd's sake!"

Conclusion: We all had a blast. We always have. I love you ladies! Till our next Xmas Party.

Vs almost complete

PS Wishing Pogi was here.

x

Goodbye For Now

People always leave. That's one thing I believe in. It sounds negative but it isn't. A very recent example is about my good friend Oliver.

I wasn't really that surprised when I found out about his migration to the US; actually, I felt happy for him. It's an opportunity that cannot be experienced by all. Plus, he waited many years for that, it comes to a point of seizing any hope but you know, some things just happens in time and are real.

Anyway, he invited some of his good friends to go and hang out with him for the very last time. We had dinner at his sister's house and I sure did enjoy the kaldereta. It was my favorite Filipino dish of all time! I knew it was in the menu, t'was one of his sister's specialty. We all had fun and like mountain snakes after eating.

The hardest part was saying goodbye. But looking on the bright side, we might bump on each other in the future. So I said, "Goodbye for now and see you again soon my good friend."

x

Fourth Year at B&M!

I didn't expect myself staying in a company for almost five years. Apparently, I did!

Last Friday, I attended our company's Christmas party in Blue Leaf at Taguig. It was my fourth time to attend such an event with the same company. Our theme is Better Together and the funny thing is I went there all by me self. I have a very hectic schedule you know... lots of "mom chores" to do before I can go, relax and do whatever I want.

Anyway, my colleagues decided to achieve a group of instrumentalists or what we call an orchestra. I wasn't so sure if I can make it to the party then so I never joined but I do have a contingency plan though. What I planned was to wear my good old DMs, skinny jeans and a loose classy black top - I sounded like a real rockstar eh? Hehe.

I got there oh so late, starving for food and some wine. Ate some pasta and some beef dish then went to find where the liquor is. Saw some group of crayolas, rockstars and vampires, pirates and toiletries, sweet white angels AND Clockwork Orange impersonators! Sheesh! My favorite droogs were there and I cannot believe that someone else in the company knows such a great film! That made me happy as I remember "my Alex". This party was great, they never run out of alcohol and good music.

I never won anything on the raffle but who cares? I'm happy and full and tipsy -- that's all that matters. Until next Christmas party and by that time, I'll be on the service awardee list!

x

Munchkin's Vocabulary 2

Xioms is already 2 years and 5 months and yeah, she knows lots of words now. Here are some:

take a bath - the former "ikat"
comeer - come here
les pyay - let's play
dow want - i don't want
more time - means again
kitos - mosquitos
Pingcey - Pitzel
ustairs - upstairs
tabiber - teddy bear
heeyam - here i am
jamamas - pajamas
waymbow - rainbow
chichiya - chichirya or chips
choleyt - chocolate

She can now perfectly count 1 through 10 in Spanish (thank you Dora for that!).
A bit confused with my and mine i.e., "Barbie is mine toy. Mine only!"

Forgot some of it... you see, she's been good with words. She's like a parrot who copies everything you say so we, at home always watch our mouths with total care. Haha!

I love you baby!

Globe Telecom - Money Sucking Worthless Piece of Crap

I so fucking hate Globe right now especially their stupid moronic call center agents. The only reason I'm still keeping their sim card is because of my one year supply of Immortal load since I purchased a Modu phone. Once I no longer need their service, I'll get rid of their sim from my phone and gonna switch to another network!

Nov 26, I am expecting a load from them and haven't received anything that day. Usually, I receive loads early morning during Tuesdays and Thursdays. That was the set up. Actually, this is the second time I experienced not receiving the load on time (but mind you, this is the worst) so I called Globe's hotline that night. I explained my situation and was in the middle of the actual concern then I was cut off. So I have to call back again, get through the whole dialing process before I can actually speak to their agent. Every time I got in, they tediously ask for my mobile number, my name and my concern which I find quite stupid. I had to explain to them from the beginning as if they didn't have notes from my previous calls. Upon addressing my concern for the second time, they put me on hold to gather some "data" and poofed! Line was cut AGAIN! Tried the third time, got in and before anything else, I told the operator to make sure I will not be disconnected because I've been calling them numerous times. On this third call, the agent told me to monitor it within the day and I was like, it's already 9:45PM, should I expect to receive it within this day? She said yes so I told her that you guys have 2 hours and 15 minutes left to work on this.

Nov 27, I called again to tell them that I still haven't receive the load. They apologized and said they're going to file a report and the matter will be dealt with their support team, which I doubt if that team do exist, and the monitoring time is 3-5 days. It wasn't really okay for me, but I said fine.

Nov 28, still no load so I called again to make sure someone is working on it. They told me the same old shitty spiel and added that they're putting my concern on top priority. Duh? Giving another false hope. Bullshit!

Nov 29, Nov 30 - still, nada!

Dec 1, I received a load which is intended for this day. My load for the 26th of November - squadouche! So I was urged to call back again for the nth time. The agent was stating the old stupid shit to me. I was like, do you have any plans of giving me my load because if you don't I'll be returning back this fucking phone. That's one of the main reason I bought it! I was so pissed beyond anybody's imagination so I asked for a supervisor. She told me that their supervisor was taking another call and will call me as soon he/she is done with it. Are you fucking kidding me? Here I am, full of rage and that's all you can say to me. I cursed and hung up. Good thing I was not there because if I was, I may have killed her. And guess what, I received a text from them saying "Globe Advisory: You have already received all of your free Immortaltxt for the Modu promo." What the hell? That night, still no load received, I went to Market Market's Globe hub. I was entertained yes; same old shit, yes; blah blah blah... then they told me they're gonna call me tomorrow as they need to check on my account with Modu since it was "Modu's" side who's gonna answer all my concern. Hello? as if I wasn't using a Globe sim card. Now, they're blaming their ridiculous job to another. So I asked them if I can return the unit since it was only purchased last month and I'm not receiving the privilege that I should receive. I was told, I can... but there's no money back guarantee. Fucking unbelievable!!! Fuck you Globe, you're a big mistake! Such a waste of time.

Today, and it's been a week, I still haven't received anything. I'm done calling them. I already look pathetic like begging for a lousy load. As soon as this one year free load is finished, I am switching to a different network.

December Fuss

I can't believe that it's already December. We only have 23 days to go before Christmas. Still, I'm not so sure of what to feel - maybe because I had a bad week. Anyway, the whole point of me logging in here is to rant and rave about something but I won't right now since this was my first post for December. Oh well, my page title says it all. It's a metaphoric paradox thingy you know. Whatever! I better be doing my draft or my angry momentum will fade. Hah!

Kerengkeng Day

T'was Louie's birthday! Our most kerengkeng friend ever!

The celebration is at her place and we sure had a blast! We were a bit sad though because it was Chie's last two days' stay here in Manila. But of course we never showed that to her. We want her to remember all happy things happened during her stay. Memories are treasured forever, remember?

Five aka Kerengkeng

So where was I? Oh about the birthday. So, we feast on yummy foodies (esp Karla who's really crying for more Bopis) and we drained ourselves with alcohol. I admit, I'm a bit tipsy eh but I'm not drunk! I've never ever tried being drunk when I'm out of my own place -- I better kill myself than doing that.

Here are some crazy pics during the party...

Badings, almost complete

Badings minus 2

With Pipi and Bingi

I got home past 5 in the morning. Gah! Being with the lovely Viatores and through-thick-and-thin Badings in a night -- really worth it! I love you guys. And oh, Xioms was still sound asleep when I arrived. Lucky me!

PS Happy Birthday again Louie, Rose, Rosa, Cinco, Five, Madam Rosa, Alligator, Kerengkeng! I'm pretty sure you had a great time more than I do. Lablab *__*

x

Training Day ?

Sorry, I lost count. Anyway, this week is about London templates. Though I'm quite confused where I am right now, I still managed to prepare myself everyday with what the future holds.

I don't know if I'll start on believing with these words - "Patience is a virtue." This is one of the qualities I lack but you know, I've changed. Don't want to elaborate on that, you'll just see.

So, that's about it. I've got some assignments that I need to work on. Ciao!

Movie and KTV

Last night, my droogs and I went out for a movie and KTV. We have planned this since Chie arrived from Dubai. Watched the New Moon and I tell you, it's just a waste of money! Movie was really boring with all the yapping and very long phasing, but what made it interesting is when the wolves and vampires show off their yummy bodies. I myself drool over Taylor Lautner's sexy abs though I still prefer Rob's since I'm not really into those hulky bulky guys. Hehe.

Anyway, after the movie we went to a KTV bar somewhere in Jupiter, Makati and realized that watching New Moon was actually a bad idea. I warn you, don't watch New Moon, you'll totally crave for food after! Hehe. As we went inside the exclusive room, we immediately ordered almost everything and as soon as the food was placed on the table, man, this was really embarrassing -- it was like a swoosh and the food was totally wiped out! Oh, of course the sizzling sisig was still there. The only reason it wasn't gone is because there ain't any utensils! Imagine some hungry scavengers -- that's basically who we are! The funny thing is that when the waiter returned for our utensils, his face looked so shocked and couldn't believe that it's only a matter of less than 5 minutes and we start ordering some more food. Hahaha!

We had a great time. It was once in a lifetime that we, the Badings, hang out almost complete. We ended up sipp some coffee and laugh out all the things that happened that day. Love you guys. Cheers for our never-ending friendship!

Badings -1

PS Wishing Yatz was here.

Mom's Sweet 60

Mom recently turned 60. It's been our plan to celebrate it fabulously so we stayed at Holiday Inn like tourists for 4 days and 3 nights. T'was a bit pricey but that was nothing compared to the extreme happiness being with your loved ones.

Make a wish Ma!

My mom has always been there for me and my sisters that's why she deserves to be the "queen" on this very special day of hers. Oh okay, not only today but everyday! Anyway, we had a blast and we look forward for her 61st! I wish her to blow more candles and slice lots of cakes in the future. Happy birthday Mom and we love you with all our hearts.

Repertory Philippines' Sweeney Todd Musical Play

Attended this production with Cha, Kets and Chie and sure it was awesome! Watching it on its first showing and having free tickets is like winning the jackpot at a lottery. Haha! I felt so damn lucky! I commend Menchu Lauchengco-Yulo's portrayal of Mrs. Lovett, it's a role to kill for and she made an outstanding performance! Though Audie Gemora is not as handsome as Johnny Depp, I guess being a veteran theater performer is a perfect choice for Philippines' Benjamin Barker/Sweeney Todd.

You guys should see it. It's one of my favorite dark musical play. I assure you that it's worth every penny.

"Sweeney Todd" play dates are from November 14 to December 13, 2009 with additional matinees on Saturdays and Sundays at Onstage, 2/F Greenbelt 1, Ayala Center Makati City. For ticket inquiries and other information, call Repertory Philippines at 8870710, 8880887 of Ticketworld at 8919999.

PS thanks Kets for inviting me.

Chie's Back!

Time really flies so fast. Though it was only for a vacation, I'm glad that we're able to meet Chie again. You can't tell how much we missed her though it was like yesterday when she left for work abroad.

We went to her place, reminisced all afternoon, talked about what we've been through and what we're up to, laughed, pigged out, had coffee - name it! We had a great time and before leaving, we promised that we will meet again soon. A day isn't really enough with all our stories, especially for Melo hehe...

5 minus 1 Badings at Starbucks

How I wish that Yatz was also here, that will make the Badings complete! Anyhoo, there's always next time... lotsa lotsa time!

I love you Badings!

Stopped

Just watched again the classic movie called "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" then felt the need for a puff. My mind pondered on Mr. Nicholson's death on the film and tried to remember why the director had come up of such title. Saw this favorite movie of mine for I dunno, 100 times, but hell, I'm still asking the same questions after. Suddenly, I realized what a brilliant man Milos Forman was.

Out of the blue I remember our gas range downstairs. I cooked earlier but did I closed it or just left it as it is? Finished the cancer stick while searching for my favorite star. Weird, it's not there. Closed the gate and have it locked, wasted 5 minutes in doing so. Damn, how complicated those fucking precious pad lock! Went inside my room, dropped the handy Cricket, checked on my cellphone - still isn't fully charged! Stormed out of the room, walked down the stairs, double-checked the gas range - yeah, I closed it. Climbed up 15 steps, went inside the room, felt a little dumb, sipped on a water in a Moo plastic cup then checked again on my cellphone - still not fully-charged! Thought of blogging of what just happened to stay awake. Grabbed the laptop beside my bed, turned it on - one... two... 11 fucking minutes, shoot how much longer? Opened Blogger, typed up what I wanted to type. Eyes started to itch but ignored it. Got tired of thinking, don't have any clue what else to say. Unaware, now scratching my right half-closed eye. About to hit "Publish" this piece of crap then finally I stopped.

Reunited...

...and it feels so good! Well, it does. I'm so happy that finally, we met face-to-face after ? years. Though we always chat and text, it's still different you know.

I recently went out with Laine, a very good friend of mine who's working in Dubai. It's been 10 years (I believe) or so since we last saw each other so loads of yapping happened haha! First, we had dinner at Outback and we pigged out like there's no tomorrow! But our convo just didn't end there. We then went for a coffee and continued our long overdue chat. She mentioned the things that she had gone through during her application at Emirates, everything about her family and her plans for the future. She always say that she's very lucky and up until now, she couldn't believe that things are happening all in a good way. So I slapped her back to reality haha...

Anyway, Laine and I became friends during our Dunkin Donuts and Kenny Rogers days. We worked as crewmates during college and even though I've decided to choose another path, we remain good friends. I can say that Laine was one of my trusted friends. She knows almost everything about me, esp my fraudulent acts and I'm thankful she kept her mouth shut and I've never been ever caught. Hah!

We ended up in the cinema and watched 500 Days of Summer. The hardest part on that day is actually saying goodbye. As much as we want to do more stuff and talk all night long, well, we now have our own priorities in life. So goodbye for now and see you again soon! Alabyu dear.

Hagardo versoza!

PS Thank you Laine for the pasalubongs! Did I ever say that I sooo love the wine?

x

Training Day 1

Yes, indeed and I have to mark it! I need to know if I'm learning something though I feel like I'm a complete moron doing this. Anyhoo, what's in it for me not to go for it? Besides, I'm gonna skip listening to those fucking conference calls from London or Melbourne. MacPac for today so I better be going. Wish me luck!

x

For the Love of Art

I love art and I'm so in love with this particular Francoise Nielly's painting! She's one of my favorites aside from JK Potter. In her homepage, she shows a video on how her paintings actually evolved. Pretty impressive! Go check it out!

x

It's been...

...a while since I last posted. I've been very busy you know. Loads of things happened in the past 2 months? Wait what?! I haven't posted anything for the last 2 months? Oh well, blame it on ebay!

Being in the grave yard shift seems to be pretty boring but websites like Facebook, Twitter and ebay keeps me sane and up all night. That's basically where my life revolves for the past couple of months. I've even been convicted as an addict -- addicted to ebay but I proved them all wrong. Hah!

Well, aside from being crazy about ebay, I've been busy browsing and reading about the typhoon that just hit Philippines which leads to a disastrous flood that killed lots of people. Up until now, though it's been 2 weeks or so, most Filipinos are still in shock and in grieving mode for the things and people they lost. I even have a friend who experienced this and she's still recuperating from this traumatic tragedy. I felt so lucky that my family and I are safe during those times. These are the times when people start to treasure their lives even more.

I had a chance to visit my friend after the calamity. It never occurred to me what it feels/looks like after surviving such natural disasters but when I came across the place where the flood reached its high, I was in deep shock, as in really shocked! It's like a bad catastrophic movie that came to life! The place looks abandoned and in total darkness and you will never see any sign of people on the street, though there are people inside some ruined houses, trying to fix and take whatever is left from them. Cars are covered in mud and stinky garbage are all around, scattered on the street. It feels eerie and that any moment zombies will suddenly appear! Yay! It was the scariest place I've ever seen in my life.

We finally arrived alive at our friend's house. I can feel their sadness and dismay but I really am happy that there's this slight of hope in their eyes. I don't know how but Filipinos are like this -- it's easy for us to accept things and finally move on. But if you think about it, whatever that is gone are just material things anyway. The most important thing is that we are still breathing.

I guess this serves everyone a lesson. We should be more alert and proactive especially that according to the news, there will be four more typhoons coming in. We all should be ready by then!

Until then, let's all be safe.

x

Exhaustion = Happiness!

Late Thursday and Friday morning. I am widely awake 30 hours or so before my birthday. It's Friday when I had a nice dinner at Old Spaghetti House with Sissy and Partner. Yep, t'was a pre-celebration. It's been discussed and approved long time ago that we should at least meet, chat and dine during our birthdays, so yeah why not? I brought Xioms with me and fortunately, Kets brought Lana. After munching, we went to Timezone for the kids to enjoy. Restaurants are pretty boring for them. We then went home by 10pm.

With Donna and Kets

Thumbs up with Munchkin

Friday night. 11pm and still I'm walking around at home like a zombie picking up Xioms' stuff and cleaning. I know I haven't been sleeping or at least resting since I went home Friday morning from work last Thursday evening. I just feel I needed to clear things up very badly before I go to bed. I even managed to change my stat at Facebook before actually dozing! Hah!

Next morning, Saturday. Xioms woke me up and I was clearly familiar that it is my 26th year of existence. I just can't believe I made it that far, so thank you Father. Anyway, I don't have any huge plan for that special day. I just want to celebrate it with my munchkin, family and some trusted friends. Xioms was singing a happy birthday song and thought it was her birthday... again! We went downstairs to fill up our empty stomach. Mom and Achi was there and they both greeted me. Achi handed me a gift for my hairspa treatment. Yay! I was like wow, my day is getting better and better! By lunch time, my family and I feast on Mom's famous fried chix and my fusilli specialty.

Late afternoon, Saturday. Do you know that that day was a very tiring one? Anyhow, my droogs planned a birthday party for me. I decided to do it in Polu Kai for them to experience some good affordable cocktails. I was quite excited because this will be the time that we'll all meet again. It's been like 5 or 6 months since we last met.

Karla made this artistic invitation

Blowing of candle with my mini P cake by Martha's

Sunday morning. We had a blast and fortunately, the party didn't end there. We went to WG Diner in Makati Avenue for the extended celebration! We were caught by the rain but we can't resist the amber fluid that we're seeing on our table so we stayed, drink, chat, laugh, drink, eat, drink, laugh, drink again and again and again. We went home past 3 in the next morning, happy and fulfilled!

Today. I am glad I have shared and enjoyed this important day with my loved ones despite my decreasing strength, energy and stamina and and and... Hehe. Looking forward to another year of happiness, completeness and prettiness of course! Ta-ta!

x

PS thanks guys for your fabulous gifts! I lov'em all!

26th

I wasn't surprised waking up one day finding myself at this age. All the adventures that I've been through... nah! I'm always in a state of awareness that I will grow up and get old gracefully. I hope! I remember a quote that I read somewhere: Growing old is mandatory; growing up is optional. True, in the sense that not all of us grow up even if we are the the oldest living person in the world. I, myself don't know if I'm a grown up person. I sometimes find myself confused of things but accept them as it was and never regret anything. I do believe that I will not be the person I am now if I never came across all the things that you can imagine a person can stumble upon in life.

If I only have a list, it will be a long one since there's a lot of people I wanted to thank my life for. I won't elaborate them here but am sure they know who they are. I am very lucky having Xioms in my life -- she's the best gift ever! Everyday is turning out great with her beside me. I am learning things, things you'll never thought of learning. Patience (for example), one of the attitudes that I lack is quite improving. She's the one who thought me to fight not just because you have an enemy but because you believe there's something or someone worth fighting for. She thought me to love unconditionally, regardless of tears and sorrow, things like that.

I'm not hoping for a car or a house on this special day of mine though if it's all been given, why not??? But rather, I am hoping for more happiness and long life for me to witness my kiddo growing up. I would be a hypocrite if I say that my life's perfect. Nothing's perfect you silly! But I truly am blessed having an understanding and supportive family, true and trusted friends and best of all an angel who gives a reason for my daily survival. I love you all and happy birthday to me self. Cheers!

x

Munchkin's 2nd

July 9, 2007 when I gave birth to an angel who changed my life completely. I keep on telling myself that I wasn't ready that time but surprisingly, I was. It feels like it was just yesterday. It's strange how time flies soooo fast. My munchkin is now 2 years old -- "the terrible two" as what they always say.

Anyway, I have planned for a lunch or dinner out with my family on her special day but you know, not all of our schedules are matching so I decided to do it on the 11th. It wasn't that grand -- come on, I'm not into that! As long as am with my family and some good friends (with good food of course), that would be totally fine.

Grandma won't let Xioms' REAL birthday pass without anything of course. So she bought a Barney (Xiomai's love of her life) cake and cooked pansit puti and some fried chix to feast for our lunch last July 9.

Munchkin wasn't really feeling well that day, she had measles.

But of course she felt good when she saw Barney!

June 11th. We had our lunch at Polu Kai, an American/Hawaian Restaurant in Serendra. The food was good and the service was even better! We enjoyed dining there, not to mention their 50% off cocktails. I got tipsy because I tried all of their cocktails but STILL, frozen margarita was my fav! Luckily, mom didn't bother bringing Xioms home. Thank you mom and I love you!

My happy family and friends

The blowing AGAIN of candles. Yep, Xioms was quite afraid of fire.

And was never afraid of sweets! Yummy cupcakes are from Martha's.

So there. Even though Munchkin doesn't really understand things like this now, I am positive that she will in the coming years. Happy 2nd Birthday my angel. Mama LOVES you so forever!

x

Pitseleh

It was actually a busy day when my good friend Karla sent me this mushy song. I have heard it a long, long time ago and I hate it. I hate it because it is disgustingly beautiful. I dunno if I can relate to this but Karla insists that I do. Oh well, whatever it is... I've never been bitter and I have no regrets with my past. I'm happy that Elliot picked this title as it rhymes my name. It felt like it was made for me.

Pitseleh

by Elliot Smith

I'll tell you why I don't want to know where you are

I got a joke I've been dying to tell you

The silent kid is looking down the barrel

To make the noise that I kept so quiet

I kept it from you, Pitseleh

I'm not what's missing from your life now

I could never be the puzzle pieces

They say that god makes problems just to see what you can stand

Before you do as the devil pleases

And give up the thing you love

But no one deserves it

The first time I saw you, I knew it would never last

I'm not half what I wish I was

I'm so angry, I don't think it'll ever pass

And I was bad news for you, just because

I never meant to hurt you

x

Experiencing Vampirism

Today's my first night of being a vampire, again. I don't like it but looking on the bright side, my long wait is finally over. Am happy though that I've improved this year. It seems that all my efforts are commended and recognized. Kaching for that!

Gosh... am totally blank! My thoughts are all over and and for the first time, I've really got nothing to say.

Three months? That would only be three days... I hope. Happiness!

x

Irreplaceable Love

I finally finished reading the Cirque du Freak Saga. I have to say pareng Shan did an amazing job! I was actually craving for more but I'm afraid every book has its own ending. I just can't wait to see it maybe on film.

Looking on the bright side, I'll be able to continue the Slaughterhouse-Five and The Man Without a Country. Lolo Bonks was actually pissed saying that I have already replaced Kurt. Hehe. You're quite wrong with that lolo, I've always been in love with his comedic quotes, and his looks of course.

x

Little People

It wasn't my intention to write but I really can't help myself, besides there's not much to do.

I was on the 9th book of Darren Shan's Saga. It was pretty obvious that I was really hooked. If there's a possibility of reading the 12 books in a night, I would! I kind of love fast-paced, spooky and vampiric type of fiction books.

Anyway, there was this character in the book that I found so special and I realized that it's one of my favorites. The name was Harkat Mulds and he was one of the little people. He was actually a ghost who asked Desmod Tiny (the annoying asshole who creates the Little People) to bring him back to life. It was possible but there are some consequences. When back to life, he will be totally clueless of his past and his appearance won't be the same again. The features, as I read the book, was a short stitched face and body (imagine Frankenstein) with two large green eyes having no eyelids. There will be no hair, no nose, no ears present and will be wearing a mask to cover his mouth. In the book, little people wears a blue hooded robe to cover their greyish skin and they don't speak at all.

It was later announced that Harkat has ears and it was stitched under his large green eyes. He also speaks and the mask he's wearing was specially made for them as a protection. He will die if he breathes the air for 12 or 13 hours straight... if I remember correctly. Anyway, he has sharp yellowish teeth and can eat almost anything! He doesn't have taste buds so everything tastes the same. He hardly sleeps but it's fine and when he does, he sleeps with his eyes wide open. How weird is that?

What made this character special is that it was really original. I haven't imagine such a creature like that but it exist in Darren O'Shaughnessy's book. I have a feeling that Harkat is one of the heroes though right now, he was only like a sidekick to the boy named Darren Shan.

So that was it. Still haven't got work to do which means, time to read!

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A Month To Go

July is very near and I only have a month to go then I'll be a vampire again. Haha, at least not a vampaneze. Anyway, I've been longing to be in the GY shift and it was absolutely my favorite shift of all. No bosses around (well, at least one or two), I can wear whatever I want -- no business attire bullshit and everything seems peaceful and quiet.

On the contrary, sleepless days will be on by that time. Imagine arriving home and Xioms was already up and alive? Wooohooo... well, cest la vie! We have to be flexible sometimes. So, I'll just be looking forward on that and make things more easy then. I better start doing my agenda.

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Munchkin's Vocabulary 1

We were supposed to teach our kids to speak the words correctly but surprisingly, my family and I were the ones who learned so much from Xioms.

Xioms own vocabulary:

neeneen - milk
eths - (sounds like S) meaning to sleep or nap
arnee - Barney
pits - pig
pilet - Piglet
theddy - teddy
er ries - Mr. Fries
hee hee haus - Mickey Mouse
cokowtch - cockroach
erm - worm
ya-eeh - yuckie or yuck
hanchbah - Spongebob
yayt - light
le go - let's go
sta - stop
papa - eat
yeyee ees - jelly ace
joos - juice
nonot - pacifier
neenaw - ninang/ninong
ey - play
opis - office
arket - market
wice - rice
su - soup
ay seam - ice cream
eyk - cake
haaa dohhh - hotdog
eeken - chicken
eezard - lizard
bodart - Bogart (our dog)
pity - pretty
sowi - sorry i.e., "Sowi Mama, sowi."
ayayoo - I love you
uhn nayt - good night
moning - good morning
eyow - hello
shoosh - shoes
eeppers - slippers
pope pees - poker face
wats - watch
eyeth - eyes
noos - nose
her - hair
hans - hands
eeyee eeyee - armpit
peepee - flower
deedee - breast
aths - ass
sower - shower
eekat - take a bath
tahhwel - towel
nuths - nuts
mahhhneeee - money
poo poo - feces
wee wee - urinate

Acts:

When you ask her name, she's like "ay nim iths ..mara yel yenyo" - My name is Xiomara Ziel Eugenio

When you say count - she's like "two, tee, thix"

When you ask where's the worm or the cockroach - she'll do this kiccckk sound while making a split line over her neck which means it's dead.

Scary eyes - rolling of eyeballs, more like what The Undertaker was doing just before the wrestling match.

Funny face - makes fun of her face like pinching her cheeks or poking her tongue out.

Devil laugh - she's like "muhahahaha"

Can't remember all but hey, am still learning you know! Kids may be bossy sometimes. Will post some more in the future.

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SIS or SIG?

Since lolo is bossing me around to come up with this, I'm now writing and yes, I've been bullied.

Anyway, the answer is YES, I went. It was only a short travel and the place plus food was a bit okay (when I say "a bit" that means, not really). So when we got there, I immediately checked the room and good thing it was air-conditioned. What really made my day was the bathroom with an exhaust fan, thank goodness!

It was never in my plan to swim so I didn't even bother to bring any swimming gear. I don't even plan to associate with the earthlings because the reason why I'm there is I want to relax and do nothing, and so I stayed in the room most of the time. I brought my book btw and some chips that I can munch whenever I feel the boredom.

Well I was thankful though because Missy was there who is very passive and didn't expressed any complaints with my own little world. We had our pics taken, wandered the cheap looking resort and had some girl talk. I found this girl full of sense but she's the war-freak type. Hehe.

Anyhow, am so happy I made a friend in this event. I'm not really sure to say that I enjoyed this shit but one thing for sure, I have seen lots of bitches and whores' demeanor.

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PS If you're wondering what happened to the person am referring to my previous post; well, he's still a douche bag (that'll never change) who is really NOTHING on Earth.

Addicted to Darren Shan

It's been awhile since I last posted. I was so busy this past few days... busy of work, my kid and searching for books. Last week, I finally found the time to start reading Darren Shan's saga (and I still got unfinished slaughterhouse-five, clockwork orange and a man without a country by my side). My department had a team building in Laguna and I was able to come. I brought this first book (one of the saga) and read it the whole time I was there. I got hooked with the book's characters and indeed t'was so fast-paced that you'll end up craving for more.

It was Tuesday night I think when I went to Fullybooked to grab the second and the third one. I was about to get disappointed when I can't find the third of the saga. I rushed to the customer service to ask for a copy of it. They called each of their branches here in Metro Manila and lucky me, they have one at Rockwell so I immediately signed for reservation. I went straight to the cashier, paid for the second book and rushed out of the bookstore. I was surprised when I got outside, it was raining cats and dogs! I felt happy inside out although I needed to get really angry because (1) I don't have any jacket or umbrella; (2) my bag was like a cloth and even if I slid my precious book in there, it will still get wet; and (3) I see no cabs around and even if there was, I've got loads of adversary! So I decided to go find a coffee shop, order a coffee and read the book I just bought.

Coffee Bean was near the bookstore so I went there. I ordered for a hot brewed coffee and sat outside to have a smoke as well. I didn't actually noticed the time as am enjoying reading while am hearing and seeing the rain pouring. When I checked my watch it's already freakin' 12mn. Daaaaammmnnn! I've been here for 4 hours! And so I hurried home. Good thing cab was available.

When I got home, I noticed that am just maybe 30 pages or so away and the book will be finished. And yes of course, I continued reading while sipping red wine.

Wahhh... can't wait for the third one. Maybe I'll try to drop by Fullybooked later.

PS anyone here got the Cirque du Freak saga? I'm willing to buy books 4-12. Second-hand? No worries as long as it's still in good condition. Please! I prefer paperback btw. Just message me here. Thanks! =)

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Should I Stay or Should I Go

Darling you gotta let me know
Should I stay or should I go?

Should I stay or should I go now?
Should I stay or should I go now?
If I go there will be trouble
And if I stay it will be double
So come on and let me know
Should I stay or should I go?

The ultimate question. Bleah!

Why do I always get myself in these kinds of crrraaazzzyyyy situations? Arrgghhh.

Well, I was intended to go yet another part of me wants to JUST stay.

I wouldn't bother to explain why I don't want to join this shittiness. I have numerous reasons!!! I was sooo decided already but then, this effing douche bag will... uhm... Darn it!

It wasn't about the other earthlings I will be with, am used to that. It was the fact that I want to enjoy, relax and chill -- away from the harsh reality and away from being an amanuensis.

Haaay Pitz... Be strong and firm. You've decided already. Don't start having doubts now. Focus. Focus. And according to Yaleyna, consider the 785 pesoses. Kaching! Kaching!

It's just a moment. I got a period. Why do you care?

Good Ol' Days

Borgy and Joy were two of my closest friends during high school. I've known Joy since grade school and Borgy in secondary. I was shocked when Borgy sent me a message at FB. It's been like forever since we last spoke. So we planned of get-together thingy. I immediately informed Joy and it was all set.

April 25 indeed. I wasn't so surprised when I got to High Street early. Those guys were always late. Joy finally arrived and we started chatting -- I have last seen her in about 2 or 3 years. We have decided to wait for Borgy who's blaming the weather as the cause of his delay. Finally, after 1.5 hours of waiting, he arrived. Tssss...

After we had our dinner at Abe, we went to Starbucks to have some coffee and well... of course to chill and to chew some fat. We reminisced, ridiculed our teachers way back, thought of our enemies -- if they're still alive, tried remembering the names of the bullied ones and all those kind of stuff. Then we shifted to our personal lives, our work, our family... our kids. It was so much fun. It's like there's no tomorrow for our own stories. Talk about 8 or 10 years??? -- that would be A LOT.

It was hard to end the day but we have to, we've got our own priorities now and for goodness sake, it's almost 2am. But we promised that we'll meet often just to make ourselves updated with each other. And I like that... I would love that because those 2 freakazoids were true, proven and tested friends. I love you guys!

at Abe while waiting for our dinner

xoxo

Puerto Galera Escapade

T'was my niece's 15th birthday and since it's still summer, she wanted to go celebrate at the beach. She chose Puerto Galera because (1) she's never been there; (2) she's tired of Batangas, Laguna or Quezon beaches; and (3) she's so curious about the henna thing. Konek?

Anyhoo, I was pretty excited for Xioms because most of the experiences were her FIRSTs. First time to ride a bus, first time to ride a boat, first at Mindoro, first time to chew Bonamine, first time to have a henna tatt... etc. -- like I said all her firsts.

So we woke up early to avoid strong sea waves and reached Batangas pier so fast. But I'm a bit paranoid the whole time thinking Xioms might throw up. Thank goodness she didn't! When we jumped into the boat, everyone were super excited, well, except me. Don't get me wrong here, I know how to swim but the fact that Xioms is with me, with the thalassophobic me, and oh my lovely stuff... ugh such a torture! Looking on the bright side though, it'll be just 30 minutes and I saw a happy giggling kiddo beside me.

Am close to a nervous breakdown when we finally arrived. The beach was so crowded -- what would you expect? At first I was like, there's nothing so special about this place but I realized that the place was ok, somewhat interesting. Why? Well, I just want to say interesting - yeah boring!

Here are some pics...

Sey, Nicole, me

my odd henna

Got inked, fake ink! Haha

family pic -- wacky one!

bday girl

with baby girl

One thing I learned from this trip -- enjoyment overpowers fear (of course with lots of prayers in between). Ta-ta!

Fuck the World

I feel numb today. Come to think of it: we've got no work, I feel like I'm in a fridge because it's fucking cold, I keep on forcing myself to do the Measure Up but all I want to do is surf the net and reply to Elena's e-mails (though we're just a feet away). Such a boring day! But you know, this chosen state of mind brought Elena to create her masterpiece. And here it goes... *ehem*

Talking to Myself

Sitting in the office, got no work to do
Decided to write something out of the blue
I remembered, "hey gotta finish this evaluation thing"
Then, I said to myself, "Lena, there's always tomorrow"
"Do nothing just go with the flow…"

Yes, tomorrow is the operative word of fools
Who loves to procrastinate and say,
Tomorrow is a new day! Hurraayy!
Who am I kidding, I don’t even know what tomorrow might bring?

So I said to myself, "Do it!"
But I just can't start it.
Just type something - anything!
And click finish, that's it.

Isn't it the best poem from a person who lacks interest which causes mental weariness? I love you dear Lena, you actually made my day, but still am bored. Gotta go puff Marl now, as in NOW!

Patience, Pitz... Patience

Today was a very horrifying day. I'm afraid that he got it all wrong. It was never my intention to screw him over but it turned out I did. I almost lost my temper. I never get angry easily but this incident, this very fucking incident, I'm very close of killing someone. It felt like I'm in fury and intense rage. I felt abused with his stoned hyper lucid stare. And damn, his facial expression curved from blank indifference to supreme paranoia. I even cried shakily because I hold back my anger... which in the end, I'm happy I did.

I won't jot down what really happened but for me, it was a nightmare. I am not cleaning up my ass here or anything but obviously and unmistakably, I did nothing wrong. I actually believe that he's such a stupid jealous bastard trying to ruin and drag me down. It's sad for me to say that I am utterly disappointed, I thought he was a friend -- a good friend.

Fighting back is a perfect idiotic idea and besides, it's holy week, I should acknowledge repentance. Thank you Lord for giving me more patience, I owe you that.

Home Alone

Last weekend my family went to Baguio while Xioms and my ass were stuck at home. Yeah, sad to say we're home alone. I really wanted to go but I don't think Xioms will be comfy travelling 6-7 hours. So I decided we'll stay and bond.

Saturday's itinerary - nada! We just enjoyed the quiet house, ordered some food to eat and watched the stupid purple dinosaur show -- what's funny is that even though Xioms have watched it like a hundred times, she still managed to have the same reaction! She always always always cries whenever Barney's gonna leave and say goodbye (some sort of an episode ending) Haha!

The next day, Sunday indeed! I promised Xioms that I'll take her to a movie house. Since she loved B.O.B. of Monsters vs. Aliens, we watched that. At first, she doesn't want to enter the movie house and I was thinking oh yeah, a kid would be like "it's dark here and there might be monsters around", but when I told her that B.O.B. is inside, she finally said um-um which is basically a green signal. Whew! I thought she's gonna cry hard and we will end up going home.

Movie's funny with those stupid aliens and of course B.O.B. which has Seth Rogen's voice. I'm a fan of his because he always plays a moronic character which really suites him. hehe... Anyway, Xioms enjoyed the film as she keeps on saying Bahh (Bob) and Coroach (Dr. Cockroach) on our way home.

We went home quarter to 9 and kiddo was sooo sleepy. After all the cleaning, I immediately put her into sleep. As for me: I went downstairs, sip on half a goblet of red wine, puff Marl and turned the TV on while waiting for my family's arrival. So that's it, one of the precious weekend of mine. Cheers!

xo

Making Mute and Deaf Blind

Last March 27 we celebrated Bnx and Karlota's BEERday at A-venue. We expected grand celebration but celebrants were a bit small-time, well, as true friends, we do understand. Haha! Anyway, two days before the celebration (and since I super loooovveeee these ladies) I decided to buy them a cool gift -- a birthday gift that will make them remember me ALWAYS. So I came up with these...

They fucking loved it! Karla even told me that she had better sleep now and Bnx... oh well of course, she made this pic her primary one. Happy Birthday Mute and Deaf.

xoxo,
Blind

Subic Escapade

My family planned for an overnight escapade somewhere in Batangas. Since the heat is on, all resorts there were fully-booked so we ended up in Subic. T'was fine with me because I really want to go shop at Duty Free. Heeeee :) This was Xioms' first long travel and vacation at the beach so I'm pretty excited for her.

On our way there, Ji's car overheats. Prolly there's a leak in the vehicle's cooling system but what's irritating is we paid some bogus mechanic in Pampanga and waited 2 fucking hours for nothing! By the time we reached Subic, her car starts acting up again. Then came a police officer who was so helpful and assured us that we can make it to the nearest available garage shop. We left the car at Yokohama and squeezed ourselves into a 6-seater car, not to mention our bulky bags. Ughh, hassle!

Finally, we reached our destination after long hours under the heat of the sun. Arizona Hotel and resort was okay. They do have a swimming pool, good booze, and an ok-restaurant.

Here are some pics from our adventure.

Somewhere in Pampangga. PHRONE huh?

Nicole, Me, Sey and Achi Maru

busted car!

mag-ina

HOT kiddo!

Xiomai initially hating the sand

Ola!

mom's sexy back

Oye!

Xioms before nap time

There it is, my happy weekend! Toodles!