RocknRolla

You see that pack of Marlboro killing sticks on the end of the piano?

All you need to know about life is retained within those four walls. You will notice that one of your personalities is seduced by the illusions of grandeur - the gold packet of king size with a regal insignia, an attractive implication towards glamor and wealth; the subtle suggestion that cigarettes are indeed your royal and loyal friends, and that, is a lie.

Your other personality is trying to draw your attention to the flip side of the discussion, written in boring bold black and white, it's a statement that these neat little soldiers of death are, in fact, trying to kill you and that, is the truth.

Oh, beauty is a beguiling call to death and I'm addicted to the sweet pitch of its siren. That that starts sweet ends bitter, and that which starts bitter ends sweet. That is why you and I love the drugs and that is also why I cannot give that painting back. Now please, pass me a light.

Back to Normal

I just had more than a week vacay because of Eid al-Adha, whatever that means. During that break I've enjoyed attending concerts for free at the Ferrari events. It's really good when you know someone from the major sponsors. hehe.. However, my holiday was ruined as I acquired some usual cough and colds. I stayed home for like 3 or 4 days, just like a pig, doing nothing except from sleeping, surfing the net and watching rom-com or new released movies. Yeah yeah, am boring I know but what can I do? Aside from being sick, am totally broke. hahaha..

Tomorrow, we're back to reality and there's nothing I can do about that. Am pretty excited though as I haven't seen my new friends for a week. I'm gonna make my ears ready, I bet there are lots of crazy funny stories to hear.

Ciao!

Mom's 61st

This is the first time that Mom's gonna celebrate her birthday without me. It's sad I know but hey, isn't it amazing when you feel you've been missed by the people you love and care for? Yeah am not making any sense here again, my emotion's starting to rise up and down again. :P

Anyway, I've asked one of my closest friends to surprise Mom with a cake. Come on, am out of budget and it's the only thing I can give. It's the thought that counts, isn't it? So, my friend, Keti, bought a huge one at Conti's and delivered it straight at home. We sang her a birthday song (me on Skype of course!) and she blew the candle.

taken from Skype

I guess Mom was pretty happy then. Happy birthday again Ma, I love you to bits.

If you could wake up as anyone tomorrow, who would it be?

Mother Mary.

Ask me anything

What's the weirdest thing you've ever eaten?

fried frogs and seaweeds.

Ask me anything

Unusual Power Nap

As usual, another boring day at our crib here in sandpit. A friend of ours, Wei Yan, called and wanted to come over for a little drink. Yeah, just a little drink. :P There's nothing much to do, so I guess we don't have any choice. hehe.. We waited for hours until I realised that I have fallen asleep. Funny thing is, one of my housemates reenacted the position on how the way I sleep. I was like halfway lying down with my tummy on the couch PLUS feet up. Imagine that. haha.. All right, enough of this shit.

Vodka and grenadine time!

Straight Lines

Waking up this morning ain't that good. I feel so emotional that I want to never wake up anymore. People have their own problems I know but bear with me, I just want to blurt whatever I want to blurt out. I fucking hate and love my life. Illogical as it seems but today, that's what I endure. I hated leaving home. I hated where I am right now. But the thing that I hate most is being in a situation that you think you're good at, that someone.. that special someone is so proud of you but is totally not.

All my life, all I ever wanted is to make myself good enough for you. I studied hard, graduated and currently have a good job. I've always been looking for straight lines though I know life's not like that, never been like that. It's so hard to hate you and I can never hate you. I just hope you'll love me the way I am giving my love to you.

Enough of this shit. I think I just needed a bath. Been on my bed since this AM. Promise me I didn't scare you. Now, I'm off to shower room.