In Too Deep

Yes... I am. There are just certain things in life that you can't change. No matter how hard you hope and think against it... you're stuck, fucking stuck! As one of the greatest U2 song goes... you're stuck in a moment you can't get out of.

There's no one to blame but me. I can't go on pointing the finger on fate or destiny. There are no such things. I've just recently read: "The world's greatest lie: at a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate."

Never in our lives do we lose control... even if we're drunk, high or just in a crazy mood. We ALWAYS have a choice. We always MAKE a choice. Our lives depend on these choices we make... things could go one way or the other. It just depends on how you take it.

I know I'm not perfect. No one is. I've made a lot of bad decisions in life. And here I am. Stuck. I'm in too deep that I can't seem to get out of this shithole I've made.

But now, I'm making a choice. I choose to learn from my mistakes. I choose to stand by the consequences of my past actions and rise up to life's challenges.

Daaaamn... drama mo nanaman Pitz!

Confession

Why am I so stupid to do such a crazy thing without thinking what might be the ending?

Yes, sometimes I find myself so confused. I dunno if that's because of what had recently happened to me or maybe because I'm such a bitch. Either way, I still can't believe I did that.

All of my life I've been such a pain in the ass but never have I imagined to do such an awkward thing. I thought there was something going on, but it was just a false impression.

Suddenly, confusion is sprinting back. Being alone, hugs, some sort of a smack, giving some stuff, being SOOOOO nice, comforting, shoulder to cry on, what the hell was that about? Am I just a malicious person or you're just being a jerk?

You might see that it doesn’t affect me but deep down inside it's stabbing me. Too bad, the person is rare. Don't ask. I just want to confess.

The Sweetest Thing

Xiomara Ziel. She's just the sweetest thing in my life right now. Despite the sleepless nights and the eardrum-breaking cries, I'm in heaven whenever I'm with her. Taking care of a 5-month old baby is very taxing, but that's nothing compared to the rewards. Yebah! :P

Up until now, I can't believe that there's someone who'd be so contented if I just carry her in my arms. When she's crying, I just pick her up and she'd be in content (well, except when she's hungry or needs a nappie change). Talk about gratifying. Hehe. Haaay... I love you Xiomai. I truly do.

So there... my December. Haha. Pretty boring, eh. Wait for the following months... I know I'll entertain you someday. Hah!
And oh, Happy Holidays!!!

Starbucks' Scary Nutrition Facts

Found a link directly to the Starbucks nutrition facts page. I've posted it here for other readers: Starbucks nutrition facts

You can look at and compare all the nutritional information you could imagine on the Starbucks website. You can calculate drinks by changing the type of milk, sizes, extras, etc. It's very cool. You can do this for beverages and food.

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Down on Starbucks??? Try a brewed coffee instead (my all time fav!)
It is NOT Starbucks' (or anybody else's) job to watch our eating/drinking habits. It is totally up to you to make a good healthy choice and fight obesity. I have found many good Non-Fat Sugar Free options at Starbucks.

Zuflucht

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