Her Clueless Love Part 2

There she goes again, letting this guy steal every love that has been left in her. As she knows pretty sure this ain't gonna work, still she's holding on to it. Being hanged in any love situation sucks. She wishes to get tripped on a period enable for this to stop. Well, as one famous song say, "it ain't over till it's over". Ahhh love. They say it is one of the best feelings you'll ever feel; on the contrary, not to her.

She completely knows what to do, but in whatever way, she's not doing it. Hoping that one day, some cupid will strike a bow at him and will penetrate his heart. She knows the possibility, she just doesn't have the patience to wait. And the funny thing is, she keeps on denying to the world that she's falling.

A day not seeing him was like a hell and whenever there is a chance to be with him she hopes that time will stop. 

TBC...

Soul-Hurt

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

Her Clueless Love

They went out on the very first time last December and something happened. She don't know him, he don't know her but it all started there. At first, she thought it was nothing. She's been into a failed relationship that made her strong and numb. For her, all boys are the same. But each day passed and made her realised she's selfish and maybe she's wrong on what she believed in.

Everyday this guy proves her wrong. He makes a point that he sends caring or even knowledgable messages every minute and every hour. It is a must for him that they meet at least once or twice a week and be with each other the whole time. He cracks silly and crazy jokes that made her laugh though some of it were not funny at all. He once managed to make an agenda for the whole day and woke her up early morning for a swim and bike ride. And so on.. He wasn't a talker or a sweet guy; and to her, he wasn't perfect at all. That's who he is. And she liked it.

One day, she started to think of what's happening between them. She thought of giving this guy a shot even though he never asked anything from her. He did say before the 8 letters, 3 words that made her off-guard but that was the first and the last she have ever heard those lines.

After some time, they've been arguing over nothing. The next day, they are okay again. To her, t'was tiring but she still keep it all alive. She's very good in forgiving and just let all things go but she never forgets. On the other hand, he is very good on kissing and making up but really bad on hints and acceptance. There was this one day that the girl felt something she never thought of coming. She's falling. Being brave, she let him know about this. But to him, t'was all some sort of a drama as he doesn't believe on anything--as what he always say. She was just curious on what he feels. He is unbelievable and very hard to read. Still, they go along with that same routine; not as hot as what they have before, but same old routine.

At this point in time, everything's still a big question for her. Who, what and where they are right now, she don't even know.

TBC...

4 in 1

It's been sooooo long since I last posted. Oh well, sandpit keeps me self busy. So, where should I start?

December 2010

This month has been very good to me. A lot of work, yes but loads of good times too. This is the month where it all started. I will not give any details about that, sorry. Let's just leave it like that.

Anyway, have I said that this was my first time to celebrate Xmas and New Year alone? Not alone, literally.. what I mean is away from my family. But you know I realised one thing - It's good to be far away from your loved ones, by that you will miss more and care more. Hmmmm... :)

So, Xmas. Tin and Reggie celebrated it at home; me, on the other hand, celebrated it at Sheraton. I was invited by office friends and I guess we all had fun. And the rest is history.

New Year. This is I can say, fabulous! We (Tin, Reggie and I) celebrated it the way we planned and wanted. We cooked our fair share of dinner and after that, we went out clubbing with friends. And as usual, the rest is history. :)

January 2011

I experienced the most lonely days of my life in this month. Tin and Reggie went to the Philippines for vacay and I was left all alone here at sandpit. Actually, there's nothing much to talk about this month aside from being boring and lonely. Gah!

February 2011

New place, new home. Finally, I got rid of the excess baggage of my life. This month I realised that not all people will be nice or true to you and even if they are (in front of you), you're wrong. So my advice to myself and to you who's reading this is to watch your back a bit more.

Also, as you are aware, this month is a LOVE month. Yeah right. Well, nothing so special happened to me as I am busy as bee at work. That's a good thing I guess.

March 2011

Oh March! This has been a pain in the ass month for me. Too much work to the point of me giving up. Nah.. I don't think I would give up. I am used to working really hard. Sometimes I think God will punish me for living and working so hard. But I enjoy it most specially if all your efforts are recognised. So, I guess March is fine.

What else? Well, I don't know if I'm in the position or if I'm about to discuss my love life here. Guess not since I don't have any or should I say, I don't want to assume on anything. It's up to YOU.

Toodles!